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Name: Teresa
Gender: Female
Interests: Psychology,Philosophy,European History, World War 2, French Revolution, Gardening, Painting, Poetry, Music, Fashion, Art in general really, Reading thought provoking, imaginative books... trying to write such a book
Expertise: breathing and blinking.
Occupation: Sadly, I work at the local lib
Industry: Don't have one
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  ApplicantUnknown
Member Since:
3/7/2006
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| So I checked out my footprints...Korea lots and lots of Korea. I don't mean like someone from there I mean like "the republic of Korea".
I'm honored.
HEY GUYS. I know you'll see this haha. | | |
| Near the end of my great grandmothers life, she asked me more and more if i was seeing anyone or if there was anyone I was interested in. I wasn't seeing anyone and still am not but of course there was someone i was interested in, i'm just not the kind of person who is comfortable sharing that kind of stuff with their family although I was the most comfortable with her and divulged that kind of information when i was younger, much younger.
I think she really wanted me to have someone, in the whole "someone to take care of her" way. I feel kinda bad about that, it would have made her really happy.
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| I think my major problem when it comes to figuring out where to transfer to and what to major in, is fear. I'm afraid that i'll pick the wrong major and the world will end or something, i'm just horrified of it. I know this is ridiculous since you can change your major anytime (though if you've stuck with it for ages it seems like a waste really). The whole thing is such a big step that it freaks me out. That's why i've been so damned indecisive, it's not something I want to think about anyway.
I need to not be afraid. And I figured it out...I want to major in either psychology or criminal justice. But my heart says criminal justice cause i'm interested in like every aspect of that, psychology on the other hand...some of it i could care less about and i would get bored as hell or wind up not understanding.
So I narrowed it down to a few colleges. West Chester University (it's close, it's cheap, it's good), Eastern University (i only say this honestly cause i got accepted there when i got out of highschool so I know they'd take me...but I would have to go there for psych only...i'll do that as my fall back...there i made that decision) or.......Drexel.
Dear jesus. But, i want to do their online programs so I don't have to commute there or even worse, LIVE there. PLUS i'd have a lot more free time to work and save up moneyz which is tres important. It's drexel, great reputation of course and how proud would i be "oh i go to drexel" which i technically would be lmao. It's 600 dollars a credit with the full course load at 12 credits a semester*jesus- $7,200 a semester* but i'm poor so I could get a hefty amount of financial aid. Okay that's what I really wanna do.
Drexel University: Criminal Justice Major
Sounds great. What do you guys think? | | |
| I'm really sick of this.
Several months ago, i discovered that i have high blood pressure. Awesome right? I discovered this after going to the ER for feeling all kinds of odd, i was constantly feeling like i was going to black out or something, and all kinds of other horrible things. the best way i could put it is that it felt like SOMETHING was building up and would eventually cause something to happen (stroke, whatever) soooo yeah the er failed horribly, apparently my blood pressure while i laid there at 1 in the morning wasn't high enough for them to say anything about although i still felt terrible. they hooked my heart up to that monitor thing that prints it out on paper and that was fine as well and at the time it was fine so whatever. I still went to my family doctor like a week after that, yeah highblood pressure way to go DCMH ER you guys SUCK. I distrust them so much now, i even went to get blood work done yesterday despite them saying everything was fine. fuck you guys. So he started giving me samples of benecar (sp?) and that actually helped, a lot. I also stopped eating salt,sugar and caffeine and drinking damn near nothing but water, much more water than i used to drink.
However...my insurance does not cover benecar (thanks keystone)sooooo that prescription was useless and i can't keep getting samples obviously for the rest of my life. So, they put me on the generic version. WHICH IS NOT WORKING. The last few days i've been experiencing rapid heartbeat not to mention it feels like it's beating harder than it should as well. I haven't timed it yet but I will be shortly. But yes on top of literally being able to feel my heart pounding, it's been causing tightness/pressure in my chest (which oddly feels like gas but yeah), and a tightness in my throat. It's never been hard to breath but that's what has been happening. I've learned a few tricks for calming down heart rate and i've been using them (face in cold water, breathing exercises), i haven't been in pain or anything but it's annoying me and just yeah your heart should not beat this fast or this hard. It is true that i've not been eating THAT great anymore, mainly salt you know so i'm sure that's not helping but still it shouldn't be THIS bad, it wasn't this bad when i started to eat crappily again on the other medicine.
I dug around my room to find my appointment card..i have an appointment on the 25th. not too far away but no, i'm calling quite soon and seeing if i can move the appointment up. I'm really tired of this, i'm 19 years old why do i have the conditions typical to the middle aged?! Oh yeah. i'm overweight and inactive. COOL. Anyone who knows me, knows i abhor exercise, i get SO bored doing it. dear jesus do i get bored. If i had a treadmill or something like that in my house that'd be fine i could watch tv or something while doing it or listen to an audiobook but my apartment is too small. I'm going to have to start sucking it up though. Anyway..when I go. I'm going to see if my doc thinks it would be a good idea for me to haul my ass over to a cardiologist just to make sure everything is working correctly. I don't see why it wouldn't be, can't hurt to check and the heart is nothing to fuck with.
Right now however, i'm practicing the fine art of slow deep breathing and drinking water until i throw off our natural homeostasis and my cells explode in order to clean out my system of sodium. I would do some jumping jacks or something but i don't want to raise my heart rate anymore than it already is. Last night i had a really hard time sleeping due to being able to feel my heartbeat pulsate throughout my entire body damn near.
I still have a lot of options, there are apparently three (something like that) different types of blood pressure medicine and god knows how many there are of each of those. Also of course I need to stfu and eat right and exercise. But right now i'm worried about my heart. I DO NOT WANT TO BE 19 WITH A HEART CONDITION. Fucking...fuck. | | |
| "Tremendous" is a word that needs to be applied some more...meaning "super amazing good" not "large" haha.
So the other day I noticed, my fingers are thinner! I realize none of you care, but to me it's a big deal, i always thought my fingers could possibly be a little elegant if they weren't so fat! and they aren't anymore! well a little but it's getting there, they are all long and thin! I'm happy!
But why is that the first place I get thinner!? It's like my face and fingers that get thin/fat first which is odd, normally those are the last to change.... Woohoo!
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